Oh no!!!

I tried to change the background and POOF my blogroll is gone and everything. If you wouldn't mind sending me the link to your blog if you read mine so that I can add it easier. UGH!! Then I will delete this post! Super Uper UGH!!! So..... if you read my blog and your not on my list please post here. Thanks!

11 years and can't wait for more!!!

I LOVE this man!!! I can't believe that I neglected to post the most important event of August which was our 11 year anniversary!!

Here is 11 reasons I am glad that I married T!

1. He makes me laugh. The best is when he knows I am sad or we are in the middle of an argument and breaks out " The joke portion" of the conversation.
2. He loves me and thinks I am the most beautiful woman he knows! Who could not want that!!!
3. He works hard to support our family.
4. He LOVES and adores his children.
5. He supports me in everything that I am passionate about and even gets passionate with me!
6. He is very intelligent and smart....making up for my lack in that department! LOL I know I am smart but this man is really smart! :-)
7. He loves the Lord, serves with all his might and helps me in my goal of raising a family with respect and love.
8. He can finish my sentences and be thinking the same thing at the same moment as I. I can even tell you if it is him when the phone rings.
9. He enjoys watching "chick flicks" with me.
10. He is a romantic...nuff said! LOL
11. He said YES to stay with me forever!

This is our wedding song and it still brings tears to my eyes! Together Forever by Shai:




Here is the lyrics:



If you say that you love me
Won't you stay with me for all time
Because your smile
It is what keeps me going
Through all the hard times
Yes it does

And we'll be together forever
again
We'll be together forever
Just you and me

I'll be with you until the end of time
Oh yes

If you say that you'll hold me and care for me in such a special way
You bring me joy in everything I do
And I hope you'll never ever go away
Please stay

And we'll be together forever
again
And we'll be together forever
again

The way I feel, I'll be with you until the end
Until the end
Until the end
of time

And we'll be together forever
(girl you gotta believe in my love)
And we'll be together forever
(Hold on just hold on)
And we'll be together forever
(cuz all I need is you)
And we'll be together forever
( and it's your love keeps me going through )
Together forever
Together forever
(and all , all you gotta do darlin', is believe in my love,
i'll be there)
Until the end

As if I am not busy enough but I LOVE babywearing- it is saving my life!

I want to make one of these. I use to have one but when I didn't think I was having more kids, I got rid of all my babywearing stuff. Since she is fussy the happiest she is in our arms (and sometimes not that but hey). I have a pouch and a I have a front pack but I think she would really like a ring sling and I would like to have more options and ring slings are really easy to use. I found this this morning so I think if I can whip this up really fast (looks like it would be SOOO fast to make) I could make this this weekend.
In case any of you would be interested in making on yourself too here is a good video:

Star Wars the Clone Wars Day and Spa morning

Well even though F didn't go to sleep really until 5am this morning! Ack is this going to get better????? I am really running low on the sleep meter as well as T. I just don't know what to do. We have tried it all I think ie car rides,extra nursings, bottles, pacifiers, baths, hairdryers,babywearing,rocking etc etc. I am really hoping that she turns this corner soon. I know that she is gaining some weight but since she doesn't latch too well and fusses, I just don't know if she is getting all that she wants. I TRY to not obsess about that but hey, she is my baby and I am the momma. Momma's stress over these things. Starting today, I am going to cut out dairy. It will be ROUGH because I realize how much dairy really is in my diet especially these days when I am not doing alot of healthy cooking but rather cooking quick and easy things or going out because I am too tired to cook. So....we'll see.Maybe it is something that I am eating. I don't really eat alot of other possible offenders that could have her be fussy. I am still committed to see if we can work this out. I already eat oatmeal every morning and take Fenugreek (suppose to help with milk supply). I am also going to go back to at least trying to pump at least once a day or twice to help. The I just wish I knew how to help her be more content not only for her happiness but to help me feel more at ease as well.

Ok, so I was really not suppose to whine but to post what my children are up to today. Uncle M took N and K to the movie "Star Wars the Clone Wars" this morning. J was feeling left out so I told her that I would paint her nails and that she could watch "her" shows this morning while momma takes a nap. Well, I should go do that but here is a photo of her nail job! She is ALL girl! Too cute!



Ohh and btw, yesterday I started





over again. It may take me a year to read it but hey it was nice to just take a few moments and drown myself in a good fictional read!

Playing catch up

Well here is lots of photos that I have been meaning to post. Hope you don't mind the MILLIONS of pictures. I want to blog but it will take me alot of time just to post the pics. Blogging later! :-) I need to take more pics but I guess I do have my hands full at the moment and if I remember to get the camera it is a good day! But I would rather have my hands full. Even through it all each of my children are HUGE blessings in my life!!


J's Birthday bash at Fizzoli's:





Having fun at the Children's Discovery museum:







F's Blessing Day: (BTW, we didn't do it on Sunday because my parents were only in town during the week) Yes there are alot. I just couldn't help it. She looked beautiful and it was so nice to have our family and close friends there.












My older boys OBSESSION- Bionicles. This is there creation: The BIO Band. Check closely they each have instruments:




Disney dress up day at the F's (cousin's house)



I am learning to CAN!!! Our garden has been fun and full of yummy veggies, LOTS of veggies ( some too much LOL) and a learning experience that I am grateful for! Can't wait to do it again!



Some of our veggies!



Sisters:





Just because I like to compare the two girls check this out.These are J at about the same age as F:





Beautiful girl F!!

Still alive

Yes, we are still here. As you can tell I don't have alot of extra time for blogging at the moment. We are still in survival mode. I am typing one handed as we speak with precious F in the other hand.
As far as the nursing, things are still interesting but I have come upon a solution for the time. I was using the SNS to supplement but that was just as hard as working with her latch and lazy sucking. I have wanted to make sure that my supply was still ok on the one side so I have added pumping at least 2x a day into the mix and if she is really too fussy after numerous times of feeding I give her a bottle of just alittle BM.This will be good in the fact that in the future maybe T and I can go out and leave F with a bottle or I go and leave T to watch the kiddos. I really probably won't do this much because I have a hard time leaving my babies but with K and J a bottle was never an option cuz they wouldn't take it.So not to bore you with my bfing woes but there you have it.
There have been several things that I have missed blogging and I have pictures I want to upload too. Some are on the video camera which I haven't learned how to pull the pics off yet. I still need to dedicate a post to my sweet J who turned 4 just 8 days after her sister F was born,post some baseball footage of N, Grandma and Grandpa N's visit for F's blessing and much more. One day there will be a wild post of all of it. That is when I can type 2handed LOL and I figure out the new camera.

We are still adjusting, still working with F's colic and bf'ing up's and down's but we are still alive and feel very blessed. Right now I am just missing T who will be gone until Monday. I realize how much I love and depend on T for so much when he leaves, It makes me appreciate him more. I did have him give me a blessing before he left as I am nervous about being alone that long with miss fussy bucket. I am having Faith that all will be well but hey I still miss him already!!!

This too shall pass

(Like the cartoon? Lest you think I have totally lost my humor along with my mind!!!LOL)

Ok so I know I am constantly whining right now. I am shhhing F right now typing one handed, It is 2:13 am and she doesn't stay asleep but up a few min stretches. T even gave her a bottle of BM, I thought she might sleep so I pumped. She woke up and nursed again pulling at me cuz I had just pumped. She is sorta asleep on me right now but not well,If I lay her down she is up. I know this is a growth spurt and will pass. It is hard because of the other issues. She is gaining slow and pooping so I keep telling myself that. I keep praying that I can cope with this and before long it will work itself out. Right now my goal is 8 weeks. Then if things are looking up I will extend the goal. I am calling the in-laws to watch the kiddos tomorrow. My sweet friend who I will be in forever debt to J took my kids today. I still didn't sleep much because F was uup but at least I didn't have the other kids to feel guilty about not feeding well, being impatient with etc. I LOVE F and feel tremendously blessed that we have her!!! I think of that even through what seems to be difficult at the time. It is hard because of all the challenges but I am sure I will look back and say WOW I made it!! She really is a miracle and I love her with all my heart!! I know this all is hard on T as well. Watching,listening to me cry and needing to help more too. Some of this is hormonal too I am positive. Then again I am running on half a tank many days too. Sorry I am venting publicly but it is therapy. Thanks for listening. No need to feel sorry for me. I just need you prayers that I can cope and do the best I can. Now back to your regular scheduled program with less whine!